Archive for August, 2010

Travel scenes

Saturday, August 28th, 2010

Airplane sky

Khreshchatyk thoroughfare

Friday just before noon I walked through security at Orlando International Airport for a trip bound for Kiev, Ukraine. Marc McMurrin and I are on this trip to connect with New Life church, Northland’s parter in Ukraine and the largest evangelical church in the country. We are going to help with the launch of an online ministry, and to share in the experiences we’ve had in the almost seven years Northland has been online.

Our initial flight was delayed which meant we couldn’t make our connect in New York to Kiev. We re-rerouted to Cincinnati, then to Paris with the intent to finish in Kiev. In Paris we landed early so Marc and I stopped for a breakfast drink at a snack stand 40 feet from our terminal. In the daze of jetlag we didn’t account for the time change correctly and missed the boarding and departure of our flight. We were lucky to get the last two seats on the 12:30 flight to Kiev – missing them would’ve meant losing a full day. We were also lucky to get bumped to first class for that final leg.

We eventually arrived in Kiev around 4:30p local time (9:30a at home), 24 hours after leaving. It felt good to arrive. At least it did until Marc slipped boarded a bus at the airport and split open his shin. He shin was (and is) swollen and tender, so Katia and Sergei, two Ukrainians who work with Music Mission Kiev, gave me a tour of the city tonight in his stead. Tomorrow is full of church and soccer and other adventures so both Marc and I are turning in early to get a much-needed proper night’s sleep.

Once I was blind(ish), now I can see

Saturday, August 21st, 2010

A seeing man

For most of my life I’ve been nearly blind. Take away my glasses and I can’t read anything because it’s hard to read when you can’t see letters. I can’t find keys, clothes, accessories – I’ve even had enormous problems finding glasses when they were moved from the place I originally set them.

But that’s changed. Yesterday I had SBK LASIK surgery and right now. When I started writing this I was only three hours out of operation, but already I could see. If you have good or even functional vision this may not seem like a big deal. But if you had vision like mine (-4.5/-5.5) and you’ve lived with prosthetic eyes for most of your life, being able to open your eyes and see is miraculous.

My vision was corrected by Dr Joel Hunter at Hunter Vision. I’ve known Joel for almost ten years and when he and his brother, Josh, decided to open Hunter Vision they brought me on to help them with their branding and design work. I’m definitely a vested party in Hunter Vision. Despite my relationship and my lack of visual ability, I never had any intention of getting my own eyes fixed. Jenn has always liked the way I look in glasses and I’ve worn them for so long I just didn’t think it was worth the slight risk or cost. But two weeks ago Pear bent my frames and I spent last week frustrated with glasses that constantly slipped down my face. Last Friday at the zoo in a pique of near-rage I emailed Josh and asked about the surgery. The following Monday I setup an appointment, Thursday I came in for an evaluation and after discovering I was a candidate I took the plunge and set up an appointment for yesterday morning.

The abrupt nature of my decision meant that I hadn’t researched much about LASIK, SBK or even eye health in general. Sitting in the pre-op room I realized I didn’t know anything about the surgery I was about to have. As Joel told me about what I’d experience some of the details were off-putting. My eyelids would be held up during the one- to two-minute surgery. A tiny suction cup would be attached to my cornea to keep my eye in place. I would briefly lose my vision. A laser would be turned onto my eye to cut me open and reshape my cornea. I had a moment of doubt – did I really want to do this? Are glasses really that bad? But that last question which probably runs through everyone’s mind is what sealed the deal for me. Glasses are bad. I had prosthetic eyes. I could eliminate the prostheses forever (though I may need reading glasses one day). If I had a peg leg or a fake tooth I imagine I’d leap at the chance to replace those with a normal and functional part.

The operation was easy. There were no surprises and the entire experience was quick. I laid on the operating table for about 10 minutes total. Each eyes was numbed, held open then operated on. There were two phases to each eye and no pain involved. When the small suction cup was applied there was pressure, but it was just a minor discomfort. When the laser fired it apparently triggered a receptor in my nose that creates the scent of a freshly opened can of tennis balls. (Joel had told me in advance that some people think it smells like something is burning.)

All I had to do during the surgery was stare straight ahead and not freak out. Both were easy enough, though if you are claustrophobic the surgery would be a challenge. Sitting in the room after the surgery as Joel told me what I needed to do to take care of my eyes, I couldn’t help but look around. Everything was blurry, but my vision was immediately better than it had been before the surgery. The exit sign two rooms away was legible almost immediately. After a short walkthrough of the post-op regimen (mostly drop-related) we moved into the exam room so Dr. Hunter could check me over again. During the exam I looked down and found I could read his name on his scrubs. For the next hour my face was stuck in the biggest smile I could muster.

The first day I had to apply moisturizing drops at least every fifteen minutes. Whenever my eyes got too dry my vision would blur, but with the drop everything would sharpen. By the end of the day I could see nearly everything clearly. The first days I have sunglasses to wear all day and googles to wear at night. For the next week week I have drops to administer at meal time to help with the healing process. For the next few months I’ll drop artificial tears every couple of hours until my eyes start producing tears at normal quantity again.

This morning I went in for my followup. My vision is 20/15. Amazingly, it will continue to improve slightly over the next week.

Now, I can see.

We got to pray just to make it today

Thursday, August 19th, 2010

For the last few months my mom has been gearing up for a job hunt. She put in notice at her current church (she’s a pastor) and her last day is at the end of this month. During our regular phone conversations it’s pretty common that she asks me to pray for her transition out and for her job search.
And I do.
But my prayer for her always comes after our conversation, even though her request always comes while we’re on the phone together. I never pray with her – just for her. If fact, I can’t remember a time I’ve ever prayed for either of my parents while in their company. That’s a terrible reality to face, but an easy reality to change. One phone call and a new habit was in motion.
Praying with people is one of 32 habits I’ve developing this year, but that’s not the reason I called her. I called because I love my mom and and praying with her should be a natural part of that love.

First day of from now on

Monday, August 16th, 2010

Everyday smile, first day threads

First day of cute

His face when he saw his school

Sebastian had his first day in public school today. It marked the end of our summer and in many ways the end of a chapter of life for us. To this point we’ve always kept a flexible family schedule. I work remote on many Sundays and with Fridays and Saturdays usually off, we’ve taken many 3- or 4-day weekends over the years. Family time and family trips have always been a priority in our planning.
But school brings many changes and among them is the addition of a new five-day schedule for a part of our family. Sebastian has school from 8-3 every week from Monday to Friday. He only gets 10 absences a semester. That may not seem like a severe limitation, and perhaps it won’t prove to be, but we already have plans for a trip to visit my brother in Hawai’i next month that will use six of his days off. Perhaps we won’t have the occasion to use the remaining four, much less exceed his quote. Even so, I’m suddenly mindful of the new constraints and the time we had as a family seems a little more scarce.
It may be that scarcity will add heft to the still plentiful time we do have together. The new strictures will certainly mean that we pay more attention to find out. In that attention paying, I’m resolved to document the slow fade of my children’s youth. I don’t want to dramatize the process, or remove myself from the experience I document. But I think looking through the lens regularly will help us appreciate what we still have and better prepare the changing seasons ahead.

Don’t let your habits own you

Thursday, August 12th, 2010

Towards the end of college I began avoiding pre-written Bible studies and Christian non-fiction. I’d starting reading the books at the start to find God. But over time I started reading the books for their own sake, and too often at the expense of more legitimate pursuit of anything holy. Bucking that habit was necessary to maintain a right focus on God – ultimately the reason I had started reading books about him in the first place.
That’s the danger in habit. They can be a part of a useful discipline in pursuing what is good and holy.
But at their worst your habits take over and you become your habits. Dostoevsky said, “The second half of a man’s life is made up of nothing but the habits he has acquired during the first half.”
I’ve taken part in many ridiculous habits. I’ve tried an ice cream diet (3 days), an all candy diet (7 days) and an alphabet diet (1 month). Closer to normal, I’ve tried running 3 miles a day for a month and watched the same late-night infomercials during college for months. I’m just picking back up with my daily transcription of the Bible after time off with a broken hand.
The crazy habits are easy to set aside because no one wants to end up crazy. Writing the Bible is habit with an expiration date, or at least a definite conclusion. The habits I’m adopting for this year though are the sort which could be harder to let go. I intend to live this year as a better husband, father, friend, pastor, God-follower, neighbor, etc. But I’ll end up worse at them all if I lost sight of the aim for the sake of the action.

I should stop poisoning myself

Wednesday, August 11th, 2010

I want to spend a year without poison. It’s probably not going to happen, because I’ve been poisoned my whole life in some way or another. Sometimes I couldn’t avoid the poison: Acid rain, air pollution and flame retardant pillows are hard to dodge. But often the poison has been self-inflected. Take high-fructose corn syrup (hfcs): taken in equal quantities with sugar, it causes greater instances of obesity, diabetes and cancer. It also tastes worse than real sugar. But in almost every meal I buy foods made with hfcs even though Jenn and I generally try to avoid it.
So I’m going to try to ditch the poison for a year. No hfcs-sweetened soda, bread, ice cream, cereal, etc. It’ll be difficult because almost every major sweetened product is made with the sugar-substitues (it’s slightly cheaper than sugar and yields higher profits). But slowly poisoning myself, especially when it’s in exchange for a less pleasurable experience is foolish.
There are certainly other poisons I can avoid. When I figure them out I’ll try to strike them from the list too. Working at night for instance has links to premature death. But I’m suspicious that’s as much a function of the type of person who works overnight (lower income with less healthy lifestyles in many instances).If you have tips on poisons to avoid let me know.

Turning 32

Tuesday, August 10th, 2010

Birthday pie extinguishment

I’m 32 years old today. In honor of the new age and to honor the year coming up, I’m adopting 32 habits for this year. Some of the habits are new, some I am re-adopting and some are present habits I’m just formalizing for the year. The only wrinkle in this plan is that I haven’t figured all 32 habits. But I have figured out the first: Write more.

My brain may have already peaked and started its decline, but that doesn’t mean I have to accept an atrophic mind. There are lots of ways to fight mental decline, but many of them are incredibly dull. Writing should help stem the cerebral crash without accelerating my entrance to the nursing home subculture.

There’s no specific style or format I’m looking to start. Simply blogging more regularly would be an improvement. But I’d like to try and wrestle some fiction and poetry this year too. Perhaps I’ll finally put an end to my habit of stopping after the first paragraph which has marred my every attempt at creative writing to point.

The hardest thing about writing can often be finding something worth writing about. Fortunately with 31 habits left to go I shouldn’t be short on subjects. Assignments are welcome too if you want help me stay on point this year.

“How many a man has dated a new era in his life from the reading of a book.” Henry David Thoreau

Monday, August 2nd, 2010

A new era with a book? How about 12 books? Or maybe 50 years worth?

Bookshelves

One of my resolutions was to read a book a month with Nathan. That is one of the few resolutions we’ve actually kept.

January: Let the Great World Spin by Colum McCann
February: Eating the Dinosaur by Chuck Klosterman
March: Keats: Poems
April: 37 signals: Rework
May: The Irrational Season by Madeline L’Engle
June: Hunger Games by Suzanne Collins
July: No One Belongs Here More than You by Miranda July

Our year’s resolution started off with picked-by-the-cover novel that turned out to be an incredible book. The Keats selection was inspired by the movie Bright Star which if you  haven’t seen please do! I read a handful of Keats’ poems, but not the whole book -  we did not do well with a month of poetry. Hunger Games was a loaner from a friend. The rest were books from familiar authors. We sought all them out except the Miranda July book which we stumbled across just before August and grabbed as our July read.

So far this year we’ve read modern lit, essay,  poetry, business,  journal, teen and short story. We’ve varied the genres on purpose and it’s been a great exercise.

I’ve enjoyed getting into reading again.  I’ve always loved reading. Right before I got married and graduated college I had this grand notion of continuing my education through books. Back then I was working at a bookstore and had already widened my scope from literature to include a business book or two and a small collection of nonfiction.

Right after getting married I continued reading. But 10 months after marriage our son was born. Then a daughter 27 months later. Then another daughter 30 months later. I’ve still been reading all theses years of course, but with children underfoot I haven’t read nearly as much as I thought I would.

In these last seven years I’ve grown to love most everything Madeline L’Engle wrote. I’ve read and reread lots of children lit (last summer I read the entire Anne of Green Gable series). I’ve laughed out loud while reading AJ Jacobs the Know-It All. And I’ve left unfinished a fair amount of books – something I never did when I was younger.

Reading a book a month with Nathan makes me want to read more. I’ve been talking with a friend about starting a book club. When list searching around Google for must-read books I found a list called “A Lifetime’s Reading.” It’s broken into 50 years of reading. Many of the works are from authors I’ve never even heard of (and I was a lit major). Nathan mentioned it’d be interesting to do a decade of the suggested reading.

I am turning 30 in two months. What a perfect time to return to my dream of continuing education through reading. I was going to go in order or start at year 30 but those years have no one I’ve heard of. Best to start with a year that includes a writer I want to read.  A decade is a long commitment. And my free time has not drastically increased.

But I’m intrigued by a reading plan. I’m encouraged that I can do it because of the success of my 2010 resolution. I’m excited about diving in to works I’d never pick up on my own, but that no doubt will stretch me. I’m curious what this new era will bring.